I need to do laundry. I need to clean. I need to hang up my cloths. I need to work on my website. I need to…the list can be endless and I didn’t even include any of the mom things…cook, run errands, take kids places. Especially not that summer is here and they are home. How will I get it all done? Chances are I won’t. I will get the immediate needs met and everyone will get fed. But will my house be showroom perfect or will my laundry baskets be empty…not even probably. They won’t.
We put so much pressure on ourselves to be perfect and have all the balls in the air just right…unfortunately, the reality is that one or two will bounce on the floor. And let me share a little secret with you, it is OK. We all have the same desires for our life, but we have to find the happy medium that we can live with. Because unless your children are grown and gone your life is hectic. Even if you don’t have children you can find ways to overwhelm yourself with commitments and responsibilities…people think you have all the free time in the world for them to fill up!
So, what am I getting at? We are busy. We have expectations thrust on us. We put expectations on ourselves…at least I do in a big way. For years, I felt like I was on a treadmill that I couldn’t stop. The bitch was I lost everything anyway.
Changes had to be made. What had I lost? What was wrong?
I was living in an ego driven word where success was measured in dollars, and vacations, and things acquired. I was being pushed to be more, to do more, to help more. I was emotionally bankrupt as well as financially. I wasn’t doing anything I that I wanted to do I had been taking the jobs that I felt I had to so that I could maintain our standard of living…it failed miserably….
I had to get real with me and God…again…whatever your belief system is and works for you I support. I use God because it works for me. Once I put my faith and trust into him I was supported. I received the help I needed for my immediate needs and I am receiving guidance daily to keep living my passion and dream. You have to have the courage to act on the guidance, and for me that is the hardest part. There have been a lot of steps that I have taken with FEAR in my belly. But, I remember that ego is not my friend and that I trust God.